PLKN?

-Your deferment sudah approve. You boleh masuk kem pada K3 2011.

-But I'm only available during the first three months of 2010, is it possible to allow me to attend the training in Jan?

-I'm sorry, you're selected for K3, you hanya boleh attend K3 tapi tidak boleh masuk K1...

WTH

Shining Stars

朝着目标奔跑的时候, 往往会忽略了周围的小事情小细节...

-I feel like a 300mm now... When will I be an 18mm again...?-

For the last two times I went BTS, I thought of calling XiaoYan for lunch...

Only after two seconds I realised that... I'm still here...

Thoughts

I hate this feeling...

When you see the way they talk the way they walk, you feel you should belong to their kind... But then you realise you're not part of it, and how much you want to...

~~~

The one sitting behind the one next to me was using an Oxford dictionary...

UK's was warm and humid and dark; Singapore's was cold and dry and bright...

BMAT is hard...

What are gravity and light?

M696... ...

(Malaysian) education ruined me... I wonder what can I do next...?

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail... Am I failing?

Life is short, isn't it?

Blue, λ=460nm

The colour of my STPM books never fails to remind me of...

my pillow...

错误

人一生所可能犯的最大错误是,因为怕犯错而不敢尝试.

Rusted dA

Hmm... When was the last time I log in dA ar...?

Days Left...

Trying to set a schedule for studying for the coming STPM feels like planing your days before you die...

Emo

Why is it so hard for me to just write down my feelings and thoughts...?

I wish I know why I emo...

-Empty and Lost-

Sad...

Studying in VI makes me miss SBS... A lot...

SBS H1N1 cutiii

This kind of teacher ar.... XD

... Malaysia

Welcome to Malaysia...

Where students and teachers and anyone can evaluate your CO-CURRICULUM achievements and performances through a point-based system...

Where police will block 11 trunk roads leading to the city centre that causes bloody jams, so that (you know what's I'm trying to write, which I'm afraid to write here, as I'm scared that, "that thing" will arrest me... XD)

*just another few lines of my random thoughts that come and go in my mind from time to time...

Malaysia...

I was selected to attend the National Service Training Programme, 3rd batch this year, which started in mid June... But I'm having my Form Six, so I've sent in the deferment letter in May... I'm still not gatteing any replies from them... And I wouldn't want to attend it AFTER my uni... I then called them and asked if I could attend it after my STPM. They told me that my deferment letter is STILL under proccess. I have to WAIT until I get the reply letter so that I can reply to that letter stating when I could attend NS, and WAIT for it to be proccessed...

I'm currently...

feeling very down...
feeling empty...
feeling lost...
hearing voices...
losing the excitement that I used to have while doing things I like...
losing appetite...
feeling hopeless, helpless...

I don't like this... I hate myself for being so... Unexpressive, demotivated, dead... ... ...

What's with that flu lar...

While waiting for my sis at Confucian High School, I found out that 90% of the students were wearing face masks...

The reason: One student in Tsun Jin High School is down with that not-so-deadly flu...

On the way home, I noticed something when I passed by Tsun Jin...

None of the students were wearing face masks...

~ ~ ~

"I like walking under the rain, as no one will know if I'm crying..."

said someone in the middle of a rainy night...

New Lesson Learnt Today

Never ever throw a lighted matchstick into a toilet bowl that has a teaspoonful of petrol floating in it...

Unless you want your toilet bowl covered in carbon-black soot in two seconds...

我的白老鼠 - My Albino Rat

Content may cause discomfort.

My rat, unconscious, after being dumped into a pail filled with chloroform.

Bio practical. We’re supposed to study about the structure of mammals…

Last week teacher said we’re going to dissect HAMSTER… She somehow got us some rats, one per person…

I covered my rat with more chloroform before opening it up, just to really kill my rat… It will be a nightmare for both of us if he wakes up while I’m removing his testicles…

Poor rat…

Teacher demo-ing the first steps… (Someone didn’t pin his/her rat well…)

This is the last photo of him, intact…

Right after opening up the skin… All organs still in place…

We have to measure the length of the rat’s intestine. Mine my rat’s intestine is 73cm long… Some others measure up to 1.1 meter… Spaghetti… Yum Yum…

Kacau a lil bit… Finding the hepatic portal vein…

Cut off most of its rib cage to show its beating heart… About one hour since he died… His heart is still beating because the oxygen level still can support his heart… I counted… It is beating 180 bpm… Faster than mine… All the other organs are out of place… Time to dump…

Bye…

~

Emo-ing after watching ‘Air Crash Investigation: Helios Airways Flight 522’ on NGC…

爬山记

人生就像在爬山一样，

爬得越高，风景看得越多、越远。

每个人的起点都不一样，都走不一样的路，看到的景色也不一样。

一路上，往往会拾起地上美丽的石头，把它放进背包里，继续往上爬。

可是你都喜欢越拿越多的石头，使得你很快就会爬累了。

累了就要休息。

暂停下来，看看以前走过的路，看看以前无法看到的风景。

这也是时候打开包袱，重新检讨背包里收藏着的石头。

该放下的，就得放下。

即使有些石头，真的不需要再逗留在你背包里，你可能还不舍得放下。

你越喜欢那石头，就越难放下。

可是，收着这些石头，只会使你的包袱超重，令你更难爬得更高。

一路上都会碰到不一样的人。

有的会和你分享他所看过的风景。

有的会陪你一起继续爬，陪你分担你的包袱。

有的会跟你说哪些石头能碰，哪些碰了，就永远留在你包袱里。

有些会带你走很难、很斜的路。

有些会在山上，带领你走对的路。

一路上，往往你看到的风景都会影响你背包里所收的有哪些石头。

假如你不再爬，看到的风景将会永远一样。

所以到了分叉路，别站太久，重组了背包后，就得继续往上爬。

Microsoft Office…

Got caught using pirated office…

Boring…

Saturday: Lunch leftovers…

Trip to (probably) the most radioactive place in Malaysia

The Science and Mathematics Society had organised a trip for Science Upper Sixers to the Malaysian Nuclear Agency.

~~~

It was raining not-very-heavily this morning when we took off from Victoria Institution. We soon got stuck in a traffic jam at Sungai Besi. Later on I found out that the jam was caused by a flash flood. Yellow “teh-ais” coloured drain water could be seen overflowing from the longkang, not more than 300m from the SMART Tunnel entrance…

Malaysia Boleh!

~~~

When we reached Bangi, we were greeted by Malaysian Nuclear Agency’s entrance, which was way better than what I imagined, and also guarded strictly by the police. We were first given a brief introduction on the agency and uses/importance of nuclear science. I’ll skip this part as most of us fell asleep in the cool, comfortable room.

We were later taken to a place where it really surprised me, the TRIGA PUSPATI nuclear reactor. I never knew and never expected Malaysia would have any nuclear reactors, but this 1 megawatt reactor, is already more than 25 years old… And it holds 100 over Uranium rods. Not the big ones, only half a meter long each, and costs hundreds of thousands per kilo of U-235.

All of us were instructed to off our phones and no cameras are allowed. Then, we were led to the reactor room. I actually broke one of their rules: No one under 18 is allowed to visit the reactor as the radiation might still be too much for the underaged, like me! XD Sadly, only my two teachers are allowed to have a look inside the three-storey-high reactor from above. It also has a mini particle collider (not really a particle collider, just something that shoots a specimen with a beam of high energy neutrons, considered mini compared to the LHC at CERN).

After that, we went to the (I forgot the name). It is a place where manufactured foods, herbals, laboratory apparatus, medical equipments, rubber gloves and other products are sterilised. Cobalt-60 is used to irradiate the products. The process happens in a chamber, enclosed in a two-meter-thick high density concrete layer to prevent any possible gamma leakage… While the agency’s employee was explaining how the process take place, I was six inches away from the lead door that leads into the chamber. According to her, the radiation level inside there would range from 10-25 kiloGy (Gy=Gray, a unit to measure radiation exposure, named after a person), while 34 Gy is enough to kill a person. And I was only six inches away from a door that defines the line between life, and death…

We were not given any souvenirs. As informed earlier during the visit, we were collecting radiation the whole morning as souvenir.

~~~

My leg somehow got burned by Cobalt-60’s gamma, when I was hit by the Cobalt-60 stick carried by an employee…

Bye, my two green cards

At last, I kissed them good bye…

With a cost of RM 24.40…

(Can’t think of a title)

After a day of tidying up my house(which is still not very tidy yet), I started clicking random blog links from my friend’s blogs… Nothing much important in this post as I just feel like writing…

I somehow came across “4.0”’s blog. The name “4.0” was given to her because we found out that she was one of the prettiest girl we spotted during the VICLU one day camp some days ago, and 4.0 is the best point possible for STPM results… But only after scrolling through several of her posts, I found out that she’s not that pretty after all, but still pretty, maybe a B+ or 3.33(It’s not the right way to rate girls… It’s not right to rate girls anyway…).

One thing that interests me is that she started blogging since Standard Five. I’ve found out that her posts made me to start missing my past time. It’s great that one can start blogging at a young age(yes, primary five IS young for ME as I still don’t care much about computers when I’m that age). I did felt abit disappointed when I found out that she came from sksbu, I don’t know why… Maybe it’s because I expected her to come from 华小. Her blog do reminds me of my Form Four life. Which I am missing now… I’m stil studying in a secondary school but everything seems to be so dull compared back to my F4 time, which was one of the best years in school, yes other years are still that fun but… My school life now is so… 不够乐趣… Now can’t say don’t have but then it’s still nothing compared to my days in SBS… I wonder how would it be if I chose to study in a college instead… How would it be if I took my ASEAN(which I dropped some time ago)… I’m having less fun now, I don’t know why, I can’t blame on studies, as I never study as much as I did in SBS… I just don’t know why can’t I get back the feelings… Hope my next step after STPM would not be that dead as now. Shit, I’m not sure what I’m writing liao, I should stop here…

Virginity?

How? How can… How can?? WHY??!! Why I’ve to lose my first time just a few months before my 18th birthday…?? NO~~~

I wasn’t sure what I was doing until I humped on her* ass… When I realised what was happening, it was too late… I DID it.

* “her” refers to the Nissan Sentra that I banged on at Jln Cheras few hours ago… The bumper was slightly deformed, but enough to prevent the boot cover from closing, plus a few cracks on both the tail lights… Something distracted me, my phone was ringing… [You can try imagining this: *sounds* *Flight of the bumblebee* (after few seconds) BOOM…]

Aiyak...

Lesson: Never put your "chinaphone" (especially those with large touch screen) in your pocket with your car keys...

我哋係乖仔

(Title: Ngo dei hai guai chai)