Blue, λ=460nm

The colour of my STPM books never fails to remind me of...

my pillow...

错误

人一生所可能犯的最大错误是,因为怕犯错而不敢尝试.

Rusted dA

Hmm... When was the last time I log in dA ar...?

Days Left...

Trying to set a schedule for studying for the coming STPM feels like planing your days before you die...

Emo

Why is it so hard for me to just write down my feelings and thoughts...?

I wish I know why I emo...

-Empty and Lost-

Sad...

Studying in VI makes me miss SBS... A lot...

SBS H1N1 cutiii

This kind of teacher ar.... XD

... Malaysia

Welcome to Malaysia...

Where students and teachers and anyone can evaluate your CO-CURRICULUM achievements and performances through a point-based system...

Where police will block 11 trunk roads leading to the city centre that causes bloody jams, so that (you know what's I'm trying to write, which I'm afraid to write here, as I'm scared that, "that thing" will arrest me... XD)

*just another few lines of my random thoughts that come and go in my mind from time to time...

Malaysia...

I was selected to attend the National Service Training Programme, 3rd batch this year, which started in mid June... But I'm having my Form Six, so I've sent in the deferment letter in May... I'm still not gatteing any replies from them... And I wouldn't want to attend it AFTER my uni... I then called them and asked if I could attend it after my STPM. They told me that my deferment letter is STILL under proccess. I have to WAIT until I get the reply letter so that I can reply to that letter stating when I could attend NS, and WAIT for it to be proccessed...

I'm currently...

feeling very down...
feeling empty...
feeling lost...
hearing voices...
losing the excitement that I used to have while doing things I like...
losing appetite...
feeling hopeless, helpless...

I don't like this... I hate myself for being so... Unexpressive, demotivated, dead... ... ...